Anne have you lost your self esteem in it’s total. Your posture as you hunch over so that even in flat and he with lifts is the taller. Is he that abusive that you’ve lost your own positive self. It’s well document that boys with a height problem tend towards criminal activity such as drug dealing/usage, petty crimes like theft, then there are the violent out breaks like running down people on bikes. At least your ex was an honest crook almost Robin Hoodish robbing from the rich, and was better looking. Did you hurt your self after not wearing the ring on an outing without him, or did you just what is the expresion of the battered wife, “I fell down the stairs in our one level flat.” Bad boys are exciting until they bad to you, and they make poor fathers, and often.